Why I am so dumpable. -L

Isn't Hitler just lovely.

As I sit here contemplaiting life watching a repeat of True Blood wishing I could live for eternity sucking other peoples necks but  I am also wondering why I am not so content with life.
I do tend to be a whinger, but today I feel more whingey then most days.
I had come to the conclusion on pondering life that the response 'K' to a heart felt message is the equivalent of shooting someone in the face, I should be writing my Sex and Gender Esssay and that I discovered that my best angle is total darkness but mostly I contemplaited why I am so dumpable?

I sometimes think I am the only person in the world that has this problem where I like someone and they don’t like me back.Well, I mean they like me… then they get to know me and most often end up hating me. Ergh, it’s a horrid disease I have; repelling others.

Just another guy who's adopted hate towards me.

 
I’m not sure what it could be about me? Is it because I am condescending, honest, weird or obsessive? One of these or all,  is my fatal symptoms of the disease that has been inflicted upon me.
If you’ve read my Dating Disasters, then you’ll probably think that the people I liked/loved are the problem, in most cases they are but there has to be something about me, right?


Especially the other day I was told someone didn’t want to see me as I… get this- don’t put out!!! That’s funny, because I’m pretty damn sure one of my boyfriends used to make bets with my friends to see if I he could resist having sex with me, he totally failed too by the way because when I’m drunk I think I’m a porn star (like most people I’d assume) and I rape like I've literally followed a boy home like a rapist fully walked/chased him but then I guess he kind of raped me... hm anyway...
Just ask any of my boyfriends they will say that they only stayed with me because of the sex.
Like literally all of them have said that so that’s the problem, my personality!
Also, if that wasn’t enough information on my extremely personal life if you’re my boyfriend/girlfriend, I will probably try and have sex as many times as possible with you.
SO SUCK A DICK! (luckily, he probs' wont read this cos' he can’t read, but I can't name and shame him because if he gets someone to read it to him he will probably come after me with golf clubs, fuckwhit). ;)

HEH, the funny thing is he called me judgemental and that I look down on people, that’s hilariously naïve for him to say in fact, I am extremely not judgemental or have you not read anything I have ever written it's basically bagging myself out that's the same with R. BUT if you are interesting enough we will blog about you and we don't really have any shame so it's not a problem for us to be judged in return.
Plus yes, I’m possibly a bitch- but I’d never look down on someone as we are all equal in the eyes of the Lord… wait huh? Hahahahaha.

For another past example, that guy with the big nose I saw him out at a pub and I genuinely just walked near him and he look at his friends distressed and said “I’M OUT!” and literally ran away.
His friends followed him and I could hear him say “THAT’S THAT GIRL!!!”
So, then my roommate walked up to him and said in the nicest voice ever “Hey, excuse me… you have a really big nose!” then giggled and walked off. He was wearing a fugly cardigan I WASN’T GOING TO TALK TO YOU ANYWAY SO GO INJECT STEROIDS INTO YOUR EYESSSSS. ANYWHO this post isn’t really aimed at me. Its aimed at every stupid fucking girl like me, there’s a few of us out there, I think. Well it’d fucking suck if I’m the only one.
 
Also whilst I’m at bagging people out just on a side bar – if YOU are a BOY and if you are my FRIEND and you stop talking to me because you have a girlfriend, were done.

Like fully DUNZO.
It means you and I? Are Dunzo! Hanging out and getting food together? Dunzo. You wanna come over to my house and play video games? Dunzo. “Hey, L you wanna come play put-put with me?” No, we’re Dunzo. (Parks and Recreation)
I’m deadly serious I have already deleted your numbers for EXAMPLE - I cried the other night and messaged one of my boyfriends about my crying session and expected a really lovely message in response to me being upset like he used to, it’s been hmmm, I don’t know a week and he still hasn’t replied to that, LIKE COME ON YOU CANT BE HAVING SEX FOR THAT LONG!  :(
This is a really long side bar…  

BACK TO TALKING ABOUT STUPID GIRLS i.e me!
Oh wait speaking of stupid girls, if you are my friend you do not touch the boys I have kissed, “it’s like the basic rules of feminism” (Mean girls) and “we're friends because you don't surf and turf my men!” (Skins) or in my case women.
If you do this to me again this goes for any of my friends drunk or not we're DUNZO. Like hello!  best friend rooted ex? Doesn't sit well with me.

So here is my honest advice for once that I WANT you to take seriously if you are like me and your personality ruins your hottness no, I'm kidding if you're just unlucky with love
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 If someone wants to be with you, they will do anything to be with you…
They will not treat you like shit, if someone treats you like they don’t give a shit about you then they GENUINLEY do not give a shit about you.
There is nothing you can do about it you can’t force them and you certainly do not need them in your life to make you feel that way. To make you feel like you’re nothing.
There will always be things we learn and don’t want to know and there will be always people we love and just have to let go.